i never thought it'll go so far, but one thing im sure, i lost the grip.

anyways, school WAS FIVE STARS TODAY LAH SEH! haha. except maybe the first part of the day. (:

had an open talk with mr fariz and i think he's okay with our comments coz it doesnt sound stupid or out of the mind at all you see. im glad hes willing to change for us. (: two thumbs up.

everybody in class rocked today. i feel the love. HAHA.

the POP rehearsal was nice as well. besdies the fact ms thia was acting like as though shes in charge of everything.

* gives the dengz face and rolls eyes*

well but still, i enjoyed myself.

AND FUCK. im really pissed off. i just wanna like BLURT IT ALL OUT AND SCREAM IT OUT AND EVERYTHING LAH SAK.

thanks ah penyet nyer nasik for listening.

thanks yana for advising.

 

AUGUST FIRST.
- FAIZ'S BIRTHDAY.
- ANNIVERSARY WITH SHARIFAH.
- MET UP WITH HOTSTUFF.

(: sequence of events.

HAHA.

you know what? really, good things happen on the first of the month. well, at least for me. 1 july, i went out with ADIDAS. and today, i was happy the whole day.

but first let me CLEAR out some misunderstandings.

emu, i NEVER talked anything bad about you in my blog, really. even if i blog about friends and such, it was never for you. i understood the position youre in right now. i understand how much of an ass your parents are and why youre in this state now. i do. but you just wont let me explain.

anyways, i was really busy this morning. like, 5890327643980 things happened at one shot.

reached school with intan and we went straight to rcy room to hide for mass run. apparently, the door was locked so we had to go down to the parade sq to meet jun hong to get the keys.

everything went on really fine until fazlina got a call from her dad. SURPRISINGLY, mdm sal actually called up her dad and asked him where she was. mdm sal actually assumed that they played truancy.

next was nadiah.

minutes later, papa called.

=.=/

i couldve sworn it was all a fucking misunderstanding. we were in the rcy for heaven's sake! and yes, we didint intend to run away and hide and everything but come onnnnnnnnnnnn.

in the end, we still ran for mass run. ):

pathetically, yes. we still did.

BOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

nadiah was BLOODY pissed off.

so then, met ms chong and she passed me the script for tmr's NE speech. trust me, its one WHOLE JUNK of information and im supposed to add up some points on my own and everything.

which requires TIME.

after mass run, mrs heikal called me out and i was made to host with tabitha for national day cum speech day celebration. which she knows, im involved in the parade.

so i gotta multi task. and aside from that, i still need to write my own script. PLUS, attend the POP, ( passing out parade) rehearsals.

well, the classroom environment today was pretty much the same except that we had lots of information to suck in and the lessons were pretty dry.

mr fariz screamed at william today and i just feel like standing up for him lah seh. HUR. soz william. youre still so cute. HAHA.

*pinches william's cheeks and go" WILLIAM SO CUTEEEEE" *

someone was LATE today and he had to treat me movie. HAHAHA. i loveee.

so after school, had to meet ms nora for the national day celebration thingy. THUS, i couldnt meet hotstuff on time.

the thing DRAGGED FOR LIKE, and hour PLUSPLUSPLUS. and i was scouted to be in the arena. MAN. the arena is really way too much for me lah seh. im just some humble person whos interested in debating.

everybody goes " ah yelah " HAHAHA.

well, i admit i do love debating, yes, like before and though ive won a few throphies, my confidence still hasnt reached the top yet.

to join the arena for that matter.

tabby and fathin were TALKING ABOUT IT THE WHOLEEE TIME asking me to join it.

LETS PARTICIPATE for the sake of participating.

whats the point again?

so after the arena's briefing, had to do up half of my speech with tabby. planning on what to wear and everything and we had to wait for mdm saratha and ms nora to come back from some meeting at the staff room.

BAH.

afterwhich, i left the school and met fazlina for a while and she got me bubble tea! ((: best lah awak.

waited with her for a while, took the bus and RUSHED TO MEET HOTSTUFF.

eh listen ehh, I RUSHED TO MEET YOUUUUUUUUU. still, no appreciation.

man, i was like two hours late and he spent one dollar on his drink, thus, he didint have enough cash for MCD'S STUDENT MEAL.

HAHAHA.

hotstuff was fun. apparently, hes just as bimbotic and crazy like me. BUT, hes still worst. mannnn, hes REALLY REALLY pathetic.

i told him i heard my future boyfriend calling out my name and he didint believe me.

DENGZ. andddddddddd he still DARED to tell me i owed him mcd student meal. like excuse mua, i thought the bet was just some normal bubble tea?

i know i was like two hours late, BUT STILLLLLLLL?

so fine, we agreed on that next week. i shall reach muchmuch earlier then and then give him a bet. whoever comes late, owes the other person nasi ayam penyet. ((((:

BARU BEST.

THINGS TO DO FIVE MINUTES LATER.

- BATHE.
- TAKE OUT THE BUSOK PE SHIRT IN MY BAG.
- CLEAN UP MY BAG. ( coz hotstuff said it looks like a garbage)
- EAT.
- TAKE OUT MY NE SPEECH AND GO THROUGH THEM.
- DO SOME EDITING AND THEN ADD SOME POINTS.
- take out national day speech and separate some of the points.
- edits and adds.
- go through the speech for tmr.
- watch a little teeeeveeeee.
- come back online and type out the speech for national day.

woooooooooh! thats about it. oh not forgetting i have to finish up my chem hmrk. which i dont think i brought back my wrkbk.

BOOOOOO.

man im really slenger lah seh.

AND AND AND. yesyesyes.

the passing out parade ends at 9.30 and 9.45 is the concert. WHICH MEANNNSSSS, i have less than 15 minutes to run up, get out of my rcy uniform and change into the outfit for the concert.

THIS IS OUTRAGEOUS OMGGGG.

sap, I WAS BORN IN THIS WORLD, FOR A REASON. ahhahaa. and this is the reason.

and my future boyfriend goes " yeah, youre always special hunneh"

*beams*

OKAY FINE, I SHALL RUSH OFFFFF TO BATHE NOW. ((((((:

ps: adidas is fucking irritating. i dont love him anymore ah.

OI KOKO, can still fall for you anot? HAHAHA.

ahhh! highlight of the day.

I FELL.

ouh crap. and i didint literally fell. i ALMOST fell. almost ehhh. but perhaps my reaction was a littleee too funny that hila, meeza and faz had to laugh.

MAN, i fell INFRONT of them lah seh! TSK.

during mt we talked about blogs. (:

i hope yana passed the interview. ((:

so yeah, adidas has been really nice lately. because hes been wanting to change for the better. i really hope he does. because he really puts his mind and head to it now. and i know he can make it. he never really seemed this motivated before. suspension really helps lah seh. HAHA. <3

so anyways, i think i'll be wearing my coloured lenses to school tmr becauseeeeee really, my lenses are getting really dry. its been very long already lah seh. man man man.

i love math. but sitting around smart people isnt as enjoyable as you thought it may be. pretty tough. coz you'll have to rush through your work and be at the same pace as them.

but on the other hand, it isnt so bad. at least youre stretching your brain abit. (: might be painful at first, but im sure it'll all be paid off right?

i just saw sap and shai under my void deck just now. gah, i was really tempted to call out their name. but yes, i was a little toooooo paranoid.

" special youre like a rocket to me"

to the lovely people whom i havent send the pictures to, sorry. i'll pass it to you guys through email alright? (:

PROMISE.

MAN, yesterday ROCKED. (: like, totally.

met up with a few classmates before proceeding to orchard, wheelock place to catch DEAR DIARY. (:

well, we reached five minutes before 1.30 and it was raining like mad. so the performance was postponed to a few hours time. everybody looked so fucked up and pissed off because it was delayed. the band members especially. they looked really guilty because almost everyone was there to watch their performance and if it was cancelled, they'll be damn sad.

from classmates to schoolmates to teachers to the principal. everybody was there to watch them play! damn, i had lots lots lots lots of fun.

told you it was raining, so we took shelter at the PHONE BOOTH. haha. desperate ways, desperate measures. HAHA.

so while waiting for them to perform, we went separate ways and walked around town. a few of them went shopping. so then me and fazlina went with the boys and faiz wanted to go lucky plaza to have ayam penyet.

trust me, i was SO TEMPTED to actually call hotstuff and tell him i finally can eat ayam penyet.

BUT KAAAAAAAAAN, we were practically clueless as to where the place actually is. hahaa. everybody was tired and hungry and we just couldnt find a place to eat! either the place was too small or no place for all of us.

after walking around for almost 45minutes, we went back to wheelock place. coz the rain seemed to subside.

angkong was pissed off coz he didint get his fooooooood. HAHAHA.

SAW JOLYNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN AND BEN'S BAND. (:

so then it was time for them to shine. everybody was so hyped up and we cheered SO MUCH FOR DEAR DIARY. haha. they looked really ready and as though theyve been doing this all their life. really.

ario.

kyle

oh and the other three i couldnt manage to snap a shot. ): soz lahhhhhhh.

US ALLLLLLL. ((:

everybody was dressed in either black, grey or some dull colour. HAHAHA. mentang2 rock show.

those were the people.

anyways heres the highlight of the show. (: HAHAHA. JENGJENGJENG.

so there was this OLD lady who wore like, A PINEED UP PINK SHAWL. yes, all she was wearing was a pink shawl. and she didint wear any bra. at all. DAMN. i swear her breasts were all saggy and everything.

TOLD YAAAA.

she was practically walking infront of all of us and veeeeeery slow for that matter. HAHA. macam parading seh.

DISGUSTING. utterly. HAHA. ms thia was like " shes dear diary's DIE HARD FAN"

HAHAHAHAHAA. really lah seh. and then she went to mr liang and stared at him and smiled at him. and mr liang looked REALLY DISGUSTED. HAHAHAHAAHA.

man man.

so after the whole show, went to far east plaza and had our food there. like finally we ate something. thanks pacelele for the treat! (:

well, usual. we had our laughters and smiles and jokes there. damn, i love the people there. nadiah got herself a new pair of heels and she and finna went gelare to have their food whereas the rest of us had late lunch at some warong upstairs. HAHA.

PUNCAK RESTAURANT. HAHAHAHAA. fir fir, PUNCAK. HAHAHAHA.

MESMERISED. HAHAHA.

so after lunch, went around far east for a while. and we were deciding on where to go next. by then it was already 5plus. well faiz wanted to go play pool. everybody was all set but when he told us the venue. everybody started thinking twice.

BOON LAY LEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

then they decided to go play bowling at safra, yishun. BUT, we were all so tired and broke.

arif said maybe we should all follow him to the hospital. HAHAHA. well, we all separated at last. some of the boys went home, some went for bowling, arif went to the hospital and fredo followed me, nadiah, finna and pacelele to MARINA PIER.

gahhhhhhh, trust me, when i was there, i thought of the four of them. like, instantly. esp at the place where we sit down and talk and did something really stupid. HAAH.

sharifah, i miss you. really really.

well, we camwhored thereee and talked about random stuffs. caught the sunset and yeah, they were all so mesmerised and everything. (:

AHHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

(:

so around 7plusplus, we were talking about boy girl relationship and things related to that. trust me, fredo seems to know lots. (:

while waiting for the bus to arrive, we were exhanging ghost stories and jokes. it was a good 30 minutes of waiting. =.=

while we were in the bus, THERES FIREWORKS LAHHHHHHHH. (: man, imagine that EXCITEMENT. HAHAHAA.

finna actually SCREAMED when she saw the fireworks which really scared me because i thought she saw some ghost or something. HAHAH. damn.

PRETTY LAH SEHHHHHHHHH! MAN MAN. i cant wait for national day alr lah man.

FREDO MUKER STIM. AHHAHAA.

RANDOM PICS!

FINNABANANA.

HAHAH don's voice in background " STUPID LAH JUMALIA"

BESTIBOY! <3 HAHA. i so cannot believe im shorter than him lah seh!

LEOW LEE GING.

SWEET LAH SWEET LAH.

AND FINALLLLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY the three girls who made me laugh like some mad monkey in the train otw to wheelock place.

i so love them. REALLLLLLLLY!

MELDRYKINS. (: her laughter is ADDICTIVE!

SOPHIA. (: she makes me laugh all the time.

JOEY. (: my partner since sec two. DAMN I LOVE HER.

(: so thats that for tapestry 07 yesterday. i really had lots of fun and thanks to all the people who made it happen.

DEAR DIARY, YOU GUYS ROCK!

i SO love peds for sending me those songs that makes me go high and light in the head. HAHAHA.

i feel like zouking, now,. AH MAN.

anyways yeah, walked to school this morning and i was practically thinking about everything lah seh. whatever he said. whatever she said. whatever they said. im just starting to think, like for real.

reached home and i was super late. but still, its okay. the 3n2's had their performance today and man, i thought they were real good as well. HAHA. ours was yesterday and i very much had fun!

ROCKROCK.

so anyways, on a brighter note, i think i'll excel in physics if i put a little more effort. and math too. DAMN IT, LIFE ISNT AS GOOD WITHOUT LIN WEI AROUND LAH SEH!!!!!!

ahaha. azal made my day. (: thanks hun. *sees intan and crystal frowning* HAH KIDDING. hes my son. HAHAA.

thanks arif for spending almost half and hour explaining stuffs to me. (((: hahaha.

met cherie after school and went to her place. (: gah i like her crib. fucking hot. so we were practically cleaning up her wardrobe. HAHA.

met baby after that and he sent me home. and he got me new clothes! coz i told him before i needed something nice to wear for tapesty tmr. haha.

and he got me a dress lah seh! HAHAA.

but im not gonna wear it tmr of course. it doesnt suit the occasion lah syg. HAHA. man man, cherie, i feel for you baby. dont  be too sad about it okay? we all know hes moved on. you too. get occupied so you wont have time to think about him alright?

(:

BAYBEATS! NEXT SAT! AHHHHHHHHHHH. HAHAHAA.

saye excited byk byk ah. hahaa.

anyways, i dont know why ive been mean and too straightforward. i really dont mean it. i dont. it just happens, though im very much aware of it. to all those people ive offended DIRECTLY or INDIRECTLY, im sorry.

TMR'S THE DAYYYYYYYYY. omgomgomg. im so excited can?

DEAR DIARYYYYYYYYY! im sure you all will ROCK TAPESTRY 07 TMR. we'll all be there for you guys and i hope you guys give your BEST! wooooooh!! this will be VERY EXCITING. AHHAHA.

i cant wait i cant wait. well, psst, many of us are going tmr. and for those whos coming with us.

its 12pm at bns. (:

SHAAAAAAAAAAAARP. (:

OH HERES SOME RCY PICS. <33

i called her pacelele loudly in class and everybody laughed. AHAHAHA.

and thats miss lim. i swear i miss her already. we all need her still. man, now shes no longer in wgs. AHHHHHHHHHH. miss limmmmmmmmmmm!

PACELELE LAGIIIIIIIIIIIIII. HAHAHA.

AHHH. rcy girls. HAHAHA.

THATS NADIAH'S FAZLINA'S AND JUMALIA'S PRODUCT. omgomgomg. we actually did that during design rete during the march hols. MANNNNNNNN. memories lah seh.

AWHHHHHHHHHH. its supposed to be a television set lah eh. AHHAHAA.

neways, adidas is being such a pain in the ass. booo. HAHA.

(: toodles.

i think im really dying. ahh! i keep yawning and i get hiccups every like one hr. man man.

another brief blog entry.

math class, ROCKED.

ss, everybody was making fun of mr fariz and pretending that we studied but we were actually reffering to the notes when he asked qns. apparently, seemed fun because he really thought we studied. and as per usual, he was like " well, at least some people studied" with that ohsoarrogant face.

mothertongue,normal.

english, HAHAHA. i bought milo and brought it to class and drank it and lay kim laughed while i was drinking. idk whats so funny but she was too tickled that mr fariz had to scold her. ahahaha.

i was making facial expressions to afiq and mr fariz thought i was tryina say his fly was down. HAHAHAHAHA.

" whats so funny? is my fly down?"

WTF LAH SEH.

HAHAHA. and i was laughing so hard that afiq had to say, jums, shhh, billy's sleeping. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA.

AS IN BILLY WILLY. HAHAHAHAHA.

and i almost choked to death while laughing because really, it was SUPER HILARIOUS. and arif thought i was crazy. and crystal didint laugh along with me and lin wei kept asking me to keep quiet.

it was until i explained what billy meant, then they started laughing. HAHA.

(((:

huihan was meddling with the calculator and mr fariz was like, " are you keying english words in there?"

AHAHHAHAHAA.

last three periods was spent by changing of seating arrangements and yeah, CRYSTAL, ARIF AND LIN WEI STAYED PUT. best lah seh. hahaa. lets just hope it stays this way lah eh.

crysssieeeee, dont leaveeee. HAHAHA. ((:

ive learnt to depend on myself. thanks for the effort to change. you should do it for yourself. not for me. all of us are behind you. i'll stop chasing rainbows. i'll stop thinking about you. i will. its not gonna be easy. but i'll make it through. even if it means i'll have to do it alone.

thanks afiq for making me laugh a little too hard just now. HAHAHA. ss test tmr! ALL THE BEST! ((:

 

i miss hidayat.
the one whos constantly laughing along WITH me and entertaining me with his yo momma jokes.

i miss fahmi.
the one with the most number of jokes and practically the most mature one. (:

i miss shai.
the one who's always so adorable and lovable.

i miss sap.
the one who's always caring about others and putting others before himself.

i wanna rock with ya'll. DAMN.

my blog's becoming a photo album. HAHA. yeah yeah.

oh well, school's good(: ive decided to blog very briefly about today. everything's good except PE lesson.

gahhhh, faiz threw the baseball ball at muzzamil and it accidentally hit his spectacles and it broke and the pieces of glass got inside his eye and it was BLEEDING LIKE MAD. i swear his whole face was super gruesome like as though someone punched him straight on the face.

he was crying non stop and his shirt was filled with blood. funny how his friends can still joke about it at that time. intan got really freaked out, she teared. man, i hope hes fine now. ((:

mothertongue was gerek la. we were talking about girls who feels inferior about being fat. because of peer pressure yada yada yada. i was laughing like mad in class about the way the teacher tried to express herself and the way azal tried to talk to me but to no avail because i was engrossed in the lesson.

I FAT MAH!

i was laughing ohsocrazily during second recess thanks to intan, meeza and angkong. idk why la. i was so easily tickled. HAHA. ariffin actually DANCED in class and everybody was so into it. HAHA.

GAH, i cant help but to laugh lah seh. sorry ah! HAAHA.

math class ROCKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. haha. i failed the second test by one mark. but still there was improvement and yeah, im very well proud of myself. im slowly climbing up the stairs of success. i'll make it someday la. im sure of that.

arif and lin wei helped me understand certain topics just now and im SO HAPPY i can finally answer some of the qns la sehhhhhh.

lin wei: i teach you AMATH method ahh. easier.

arif: HAH? DIVIDE? YOUR HEAD!

crystal: oi arifffff, teach me leh!!!

AHAHAHAHAHA.

english class was pretty boring like usual. we were taught how to manage anger and ASSERTIVE msges. i can so imagine mr fariz now. HAHAHA.

and then he'll give out worksheets and he expects us to come up to the board and write down our responses.

" WALL OF FAME, WALL OF SHAME" AHAHAHHAA.

AHHHH DAH DAH DAH. picspics.

AHHHHHHHH i love them. HAHAHA.

dnt tmr. AHHHHHHH IDEATION. gonna get cracking now. (: cya.

i just feel like talking about school today. well last night i was chatting with hotstuff and he showed me a video about his class. a year ago. and now hes graduated and he missed them so. he said things were different then. everybody was so hyped up and happy go lucky. its not the same anymore.

and then i reflect on myself. im having too much fun with my friends in school, classmates, teachers. this wont last. it will come to an end soon.

miss lim just left us. and im sure many of us cried. saiful cried. like as though someone just passed away. yeah it was that bad. i didint wanna see miss lim on friday because i was afraid i'd be like them. i dont wanna cry. i know she'll still be here for all of us. just not physically.

when she was around. everybody took her for granted. she'll come to school in fantastic clothes, looking all happy and energetic for class. but some of us will sleep and not pay attention in her class. we never really noticed the effort she made.

she was around all the time for us. when crystal and i faced some problems in class,she somehow sense it and talked to us. all those stuffs i never really appreciated.

everytime she gets really happy with our conduct, she'll give us a hug and smile and jump around, dance for all of us. we were so happy during english class then. oh please spare me the sarcasm mr fariz.

before she left, well the week before, she was smiling and telling us we shouldnt give up on our dreams and stuff.

she knows i wanna be a dj and take up mass communications and she was like,
" ju, dont give up now yeah? JIA YOH. remember, mass commm!"

she was so worried when i told her im beginning to hate english lessons now because all we do in class is study adj, nouns, adverbs and verbs.

i hope she's doing good now. everybody misses her. i want her to come back. shes a GREAT teacher. a pity she isnt a QUALIFIED teacher yet. haha.

and then theres 3n1. when the year first started, i couldnt suit myself. everybody was too smart and i didint think i deserve to be there. but now, i enjoy class.

theres a change in the seating arrangement. well, some was obviously against it and they think theres no need for it. but when they finally come into place, they shut up. because maybe we're mature enough to know that the arrangement thats given is for the benefit for all of us.

im currently seated next to lin wei and hes not as rebellious as i thought. in fact, hes been supporting me in math class and yeah, her entertaining. crystal and arif is seated behind and well, theyre my good friends so we'll crap and study at the same time.

reality check. after next year, some of us will graduate first. n levels. and i dont want that. i want all of us to make it through n level together and we'll graduate at the same time.

but still, after graduation, im sure we'll miss secondary school life. laughing at mr liew. making songs out of the greatings. MRRRRRRRRRRRRR FLAVIAN. looking at hot teachers. their clothings.

coming to school late, skipping detentions, running away from the discipline mistress, short skirts, coloured hairbands. LIKE OMG. practically everything. the class bonding. copy hmrks.

GAH. you know, maybe its time to start appreciating the things around you. before they come to an end and by then, its too late.

(:

 

DONALDS GIRLS with MR K. my dnt teacher. gah he ROCKS.

DA chinese girls. (:

kecohrable people. ahha.

abeh kong emo. HAHA. leks ah seh.

HAHA i wanted to take pictures with him SO badly. ahhaa. coz i love his outfit la. ((:

AHHAA. i love everyone of them. ((: from left, JULIE, MUZZAMIL, CRYS, FAIZ.

kimono plus cheongsam= LOVE.

i love her can? likelike, i ADORE her. sorry cryssie hun, i havent been blogging about you. haha.

AHLERMAK. candid babe candid. ahhaa.

ah betterrrr. ((: funtoots lah this one.

i dont know them. (: HAHAHA.

fazlina, jums, shu jie. DARDARRRR/ HAHAHAA.

favourite ncc sec one cadet for the year, ZAIDIL! ((:

OH THATS MY NEW FUNNY FACE. and i can SO hear don saying this,
" JUMALIA, STUPID FACE! " tsk

random irritating face. HAHA.

namer dier elliyana. (:

die hard girlfriends. (:

AHAHHAHAHAA. dahhhhhhh.

oh thats yesterday. i had lotsa fun with my OHSOPRETTAYE girlfs and well, CLASSMATES. haha. crystal looked REALLY HOT in her sari and her kimono and i very much love her.

thanks crystal for entertaining me in class. i know i havent been a very good blogger lately because i dont blog about you BUT I SINCERELY WANT YOU TO KNOW, ahhhhhhhh theres too many things to talk about US.hahaa.

something happened last night and i just wanna sing last night nyer song now. HAHA. okay shut up. but yeah, wasnt so pleasant but im HAPPY. HAHAHAA.

thanks yana thanks faz thanks crystal, for advising me lately and making me think the correct way. oh crystal, you saw me crying today and you laughed. KONG AJA BETUI. HAHAHA.

anyways, i had a VERY NICE TIME WITH CRYSTAL TODAYYYYYY. she came all the way from bangladesh to meet me lah seh! oh i said bangladesh because when we saw sinle just now she asked crys where shes from and she said shes from bangladesh so yeah. ((: hHAHAAHA.

she lent me her MANGO SHADES AND ITS HAWTTTTTTTTTT. and the hot photos are in her phone. my camera was useless coz the batt died on me. and im like, !!!. hahahaa. SO HERES THE FEW HOTSHOT. (:

im SO a good photographer. (:

PRETAYEEEEEEEE! meeza, faz, yana, (in no particular order), JEALOUS?

pantat dier besar.

pantat saye kecik sikit.

BADDDDDDDDDD HAIR DAY.

i met my 300 years girlf. AND I TOOK A PIC WITH HERRRRRRRR. lovelove.

andddddddddd, fadhil and i was so into the conversation just now and crys was like, " ehhhh nevermind ahhh, go talk. TALK LAAAA"

ahahahaha. CUTE LAH SEH. i hope you both last long lah okay? gosh i so love you crys. you cheer up too okay? i know things havent been nice at home, but hey, you got me, arif, fadhil and perhaps LINWEI TOOO. hes in the kingdom now okay?

" LIN WEI'S PROPERTY" hahaha.

when i said i needed you
you said you will always stay
it wasnt me, who changed, but you
and now youve gone away

MUAH. AND FADHIL, the harry potter book DAH KLUAR LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

ABEH KAN. i love today thanks to my wonderful girlfs. (:

well, i finally saw him after 123456789 years. and yeah, he did said something nice. but still, i NEEDED more than that. idontknow why lah.

and i made my stand. i will forget him. i shall forget him and im tryina forget him. whats the point of clinging on to someone who has very low self esteem? i need someone more than that.

i want someone who'll laugh with me. entertain me. and be there for me when necessary. not someone who disappears at my deepest moments and reappear when im well and happy. i dont need that.

it really hurts to see him smile and feign ignorance. acting like as though nothing was wrong and everything's going on fine. for both of us. really hurts.

and thus, i shall stop all this hearbreak stories and stop being some minah emo giler maut and move on.

well, i have my gfs to cheer me up all the time and ive got my gazillion boyfs who'll help me deal with all these.

im not alone. (: i hope.

OH GUYS, i wrote the poem alr. HAHHAA. which i think i'll throw it away any time soon because yeah, theres no need for it already.

OOOH how i love life. especially when it gets exciting. (:

OKAY PICS REALL SOOON ALRIGHT? DESIGN FEAST AND PICS AND RACIAL HARMONY PICSSS. wooooooh!

tmr's racial harmony and i think everybody's gonna be all so hyped up and pretty and i still think i look fat.

BLEAH.