how would you feel if you were misunderstood? BAD KAN? ugh. whatevs.

anyways, im deprived from all the fun just now. baby actually went out with CLARA, TWINKLES, EMU, HEIDI ANDDDDDDDDDDDDD jengjengjeng, DANIEL. siallah. love at first sight lah seh.

this is what you get when you dont give people your new handphone number. HAH. damn.

and while theyre all having fun, IM ACTUALLY AT WOODLANDS LIBRARY with fazlina and nisha STUDYING SOCIAL STUDIES. how crappy is that again?

i SO saw one HOTHOTHOT guy at the interchange just now with a girl whos got plantations of HORRENDOUS HUMONGOUS MONGOUS ZONGOUS ZITS on her face. super eww.

she was practically hugging him tight. and when i looked, she gave me that hey-isnt-my-boyf-hot face.

DUH BITCH, of COURSE hes hot.

this literally made me go, NASI KANGKANG. comfirm. CHOP.

well, i couldve sworn hes got GORGEOUS SEXY EYES AND FULL LIPS. zomgx. im SO like, droooling lah seh.

but why her? WHY HER? so maybe if i got GAZILLION ZITS ON MY FACE, i'll get someone like him.

KANKANKAN?

okay so maybe this guy goes for the heart. *convinces self*

oh boo whatever i still got my ohsosmexi baby. HAHAHA. kan? HAHAHA.

faz goes " ju bello seh"

SO YEAH, my new phone sucks, bad. i hate all those sliding up and down thing. but if youre gonna get me e840, i wont turn it down.

promise.

nisha's been at my house since tuesday and she just went back a few minutes ago and i miss her already. i SO want a sister lah seh. or a brother. or a companion at home. or, anything lah seh. anything that will keep me entertained the whole day.

so i wont hang out so much or go out too often. maybe what zul said is pretty right. perhaps the reason why ive been hanging out too much and staying out late is because im the only child and that i only get my fun outside, with my friends.

because when im at home, nobody seems to be entertaining me. well, dont talk about the naggings and such. i know everybody goes through that too. but yeah. its different when youre the only child.

haha.

school's tmr. back to basics yeah. common test week. i hope it'll be okay. i havent studied much. you know what that means.

i still think i havent had enough fun yet. i dont what type of fun i want or need but i just,havent get the satisfaction yet.

idk if you get it, but i really need someone to just, spend the whole day with me going OHSOCRAZY and talking about everything under the sun and just be a fantastic companion.

fuck i so miss adidas.

stop it seh.

when baby told me how much amel has been telling him things that he feels he shouldnt know, i get jealous and you know, anger came and overpowered me.

questions kept running through my mind and i ask myself, why get jealous now? why didint you treasure him before this? why only now?

then another half of me would go, haaa, there you go again, regrets.

but i dont find it stupid to regret. everybody regrets. you get remorseful because you didint do what you were supposed to do before.

maybe it was a mistake. maybe you didint know its gonna happen. you didint know whats the outcome.

its nobody's fault. when it becomes a fault, you either blame yourself or the other party. but in this case, nobody's to be blamed.

so its a mistake.

okay here i go again. HAHA.

yazid called a while ago and told me about life at ns and i was really engrossed in the conversation. he played the solo in black diamond and fuck, i swear i feel like crying.

really.

faz. i just want you to know that all these happened for a reason okay? you didint know he was gonna change. did you? maybe you did anticipated that, but the only possibility why you didint react to it was because you wanted to give him a chance. but little did you know that youre giving him a little too many chances. now youre letting go and hes still clinging on to that fragile relationship. its time to be strong faz. do what you think you should do. dont delay already. dont wait until he starts HURTING you the way you dont want it to be. all i can say now or maybe advice you is just look at things positively alright? breaking up doesnt mean you'll start hating. baby and i still say we love each other every night. tapi kiter dah break dahhhhh. HAHA. right baby?

babe, i love you lah. he doesnt deserve someone as patient as you.

SS AND ENG PAPER TMR. diediediedie.

yana's birthday is SO coming. idonno what to get lah seh. and i miss armeeza abdul wahab ohsomuch can?

SCHOOLSCHOOOOOL.

and i think kan, the four of us needs to take a picture together. KAAAAAAN?